Today I got all of my school stuff out of storage and into my classroom. None of it is organized yet, but it's in there. That's a start I figure. In my stubbornness I did it all by myself in 3 hours! That's a lot of junk to move... a lot more than I thought it was! Knowing myself and my nonexistent schedule, I will have the whole thing organized for the beginning of the year by August 1. I'll take pictures when it's all finished and share them.
Tomorrow I'm going to go hang out with 2 people on my team for next year at the pool. I'm really excited about building relationships with them... as well as having something to do. I just gotta make sure I'm not stubborn and actually wear sun screen.
In my Yada Yada Devotional I'm learning about forgiveness. The first thing I must do learn to forgive myself. I'll never truly understand how God and other people can love me if I don't think I am worth loving. (Some of you probably think I'm crazy for even thinking this... especially since I have so many people who love me so much!)
Then I must believe that God has already forgiven me. It's hard for me to imagine this, that the cross really is for me personally. I realize that knowing I am forgiven is a moment by moment thing. I wonder if I will ever fully grasp it here on earth.
Next ("the biggie" for me) is not to overreact and carry things out in my anger. I'm praying that God will help me finish disagreements within 5 minutes.
I'm being brave asking all of you to keep me accountable for this, but I sincerely feel this is how God is challenging me right now.
2 comments:
I struggle with forgiveness myself - both for myself and others. I will pray for you!
I can't wait to see the pictures. Remember, I want to see them even if your vision doesn't come out like you want it to! ;) I hope you have enjoyed your day with your new team. It's raining here. Again.
Ah, Melissa. I think it's in a woman's genetics not to feel worth loving. We are fully capable of loving others, but, when it comes to us, all we see are our flaws & sins. That's something I struggle with myself. I'll pray for you, you pray for me. Deal? ;)
I'll also pray for you to let go and not overreact. A lot of that comes with age. You learn to pick your battles and to let the small things go. And it makes you a happier person inside. No one really wins when you carry out the disagreement and it makes for a miserable time.
I think you are an awesome, interesting, fantastic person. I thank God for you. Believe it yourself!
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