Lately I've been in a "slump." You know what I'm talking about: where you don't feel like much of anything and spend a lot of time thinking very selfishly. It's even the kind of slump where you doubt what you believe and wonder if you have a purpose in the world. You don't want to do much of anything, unless it is something you choose, yet you don't choose anything. I realize I am wrong for this, but have not had the slightest desire to admit it or do anything about it.
Yesterday Brent and I went to church. The pastor kept reiterating, "All sin starts with your thinking." He went on to elaborate, opening doors in my mind for God to speak to me in ways that I have not heard Him in a LONG time. I have some thoughts in my head that can ruin many friendships and even my marriage. I must realize where I am having such thoughts so that I can stop God from coming in and refine me as the words of the Jennifer Knapp song reminded me while I took Wilson out for a walk this morning. I want to be made new again, but don't want to do the work. I need my Jesus to rescue me! And He promises not to let me down.
My hope is built on nothing less,
Than Jesus blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly lean on Jesus name.
When darkness seems to veil his face,
I rest on his unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.
His oath his covenant and blood,
Support me in the ‘whelming flood.
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my hope and stay.
When the last trumpets voice shall sound,
O then I may in him be found,
Clothed in his righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before his throne.
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{{{Melissa}}}, I'm sorry about your slump. Believe me when I tell you that it hits all of us at some point in our lives.
Yes, Jesus promised not to let you down and He won't. Just keep reminding yourself of that. If you need me too, you know where I am. ;)
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