One Month to Live

So you may have noticed the new blog look and title. The other one didn't fit me anymore. I told Brent this and he just said, "That's such a girl thing to say." Gotta love him!

Anyway, the new title comes from a variety of places including some personal reflection and the sermon series that we are doing this month at church. For me each week of life feels the same, with a schedule of events that sometimes feel redundant. However, since I'm a creature of habit, I like this about my life. When it was not like this I panicked and had major amounts of anxiety. So I honestly think it's ok to have a weekly, monthly, even yearly, schedule.

But how easy it is to get stuck in a rut! I find myself crawling into my hole, not contacting the people I love and care about, only filling the time with activities, school work, assignments for National Board, and (occasionally) housework. This lifestyle does not help me grow. It makes me selfish.

If this were my last month to live, what would I do? There have been times in my life where I wished it were my last days, that I could be with Jesus forever instead of on this sinful earth. But what if it were really my last month to live? What would I do? Who would I contact? Would the world of blogging and facebook mean anything any more, or would they be my outlet to let the world know of my condition? Who would I spend my last days with?

The new title is a type of reflection. Am I happy with "life as we know it"? Am I living life to its fullest? Am I really working toward knowing my Savior, or am I content with the way things are, trying to make it on my own?

And if I'm not pleased with what Jesus would think of this life I'm leading, what am I doing to make it more appealing? Maybe that's the REAL question I should be pondering!